Friends, I have finally done it! I have FINALLY found a way out of the life sucking, brain eating, little dark cloud that is my current job...I won't name names...you know...just in case. Those of you who know me at all know I have been with the same office for almost eight years and it's time to move on. And what a sweet move this is! After two completely intimidating, nerve wracking, nail biting job interviews and two reference/background checks I have been offered a position with MidWestern University! Hollllllllaaaaaaa! Amazing university, amazing company, amazing employer, amazing benefits. I am so very excited for this new chapter in our life. IVF, and an amazing new job. Guys...I think life is finally happening for me....for us...
Prayers please everyone-operation knock-me-up officially kicks off tomorrow am with blood work and an ultrasound..the fun kind...;)
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
Well hellllooooo CD1 :)
Oh day one....I've been waiting for you...longing for you...counting down the days...killer cramps, some GI distress, yes, CD1 I love you.
But just this once...because...this month...you are the beginning. The beginning of a new adventure! The beginning of Cody+Melissa=baby maybe? I see Dr Knock-Me-Up wednesday for baseline ultrasound and blood work and, ironically enough, start birth control pills that day as well...I know...weird. I can't get pregnant to save my life and to start the knock-me-up process they put me on pills to prevent...lol...Anywhoosies...July 2nd we go for our teaching visit where we pick up the drugs...and...needles....shudderrrrrr.....And learn how to "use" them....From there, I take the pills till the 10th, see Dr Knock-Me-Up on the 11th, start the needles on the 14th, blood work and ultrasound monitoring daily the week of the 15th and hopefully....egg retrieval on the 23rd! And, transplantation 3-5 days after that...So...I am cautiously, anxiously excited...nervous...scared...terrified...mostly of the heartbreak I know is coming if this first round doesn't work...eek...Let's not think that thought...Not just yet...MUST think positive.
But just this once...because...this month...you are the beginning. The beginning of a new adventure! The beginning of Cody+Melissa=baby maybe? I see Dr Knock-Me-Up wednesday for baseline ultrasound and blood work and, ironically enough, start birth control pills that day as well...I know...weird. I can't get pregnant to save my life and to start the knock-me-up process they put me on pills to prevent...lol...Anywhoosies...July 2nd we go for our teaching visit where we pick up the drugs...and...needles....shudderrrrrr.....And learn how to "use" them....From there, I take the pills till the 10th, see Dr Knock-Me-Up on the 11th, start the needles on the 14th, blood work and ultrasound monitoring daily the week of the 15th and hopefully....egg retrieval on the 23rd! And, transplantation 3-5 days after that...So...I am cautiously, anxiously excited...nervous...scared...terrified...mostly of the heartbreak I know is coming if this first round doesn't work...eek...Let's not think that thought...Not just yet...MUST think positive.
Monday, June 4, 2012
I Heart My RE
I have to say...I LOVE my baby doc. Not only is he compassionate and gentle (which-let me say...is important when you have everyone up, in and around your parts lol) but he always has good news for me! The Sono/Mock went well today, despite a little hiccup on my part...I forgot the part where I was supposed to take a pregnancy test this morning and bring it with me in a baggie to the appointment...Totally spaced that...up until the point where I was sitting in the waiting room...I freaked, explained to the receptionist and asked if I had time to run to Walgreens...And that's that. Off to Walgreens, buy a pee test AND baggies...utilize Walgreens bathroom (after waiting for a manager to unlock the door for me...puleeeeez how embarrassing) insert pee stick into baggie and race back down to the office. After that it was all fun and games. I mean-what's more fun than catheters, stirrups and pelvic ultrasound probes? Happy Monday to ME! MORE PLEASE! ;)
The Sono/Mock transfer revealed a beautiful (although retroverted and retroflexed-whatever that means) uterus just waiting for embryos! So...now we wait...I never thought I'd be excited for my monthly to come and birth control pills to start...but I want it! I want it now! If all goes well, I will have blood work checking hormone levels on Cycle Day 3 and Cycle Day 10. From there we start the stimulation-lots of needles, lots of medication, and hopefully NOT a lot of fainting...I hope Cody is ready because HE will be the one administering the fun juice. I just dont think I can give myself a shot...and this is twice a day people...Pregnancy will be like nothing after two weeks of shots and hormones. (And none of you better rain on my parade and tell me how difficult pregnancy will be-I choose to be ignorant and naive. Pregnancy will be sunshine and kittens, ok?)
All we ask is prayers that the doctors will have wisdom and skilled hands and that my body will do what it is supposed to do...And maybe...just maybe I will have a fetus instead of crocodiles in my uterus come August...LOTS of prayers please!
The Sono/Mock transfer revealed a beautiful (although retroverted and retroflexed-whatever that means) uterus just waiting for embryos! So...now we wait...I never thought I'd be excited for my monthly to come and birth control pills to start...but I want it! I want it now! If all goes well, I will have blood work checking hormone levels on Cycle Day 3 and Cycle Day 10. From there we start the stimulation-lots of needles, lots of medication, and hopefully NOT a lot of fainting...I hope Cody is ready because HE will be the one administering the fun juice. I just dont think I can give myself a shot...and this is twice a day people...Pregnancy will be like nothing after two weeks of shots and hormones. (And none of you better rain on my parade and tell me how difficult pregnancy will be-I choose to be ignorant and naive. Pregnancy will be sunshine and kittens, ok?)
All we ask is prayers that the doctors will have wisdom and skilled hands and that my body will do what it is supposed to do...And maybe...just maybe I will have a fetus instead of crocodiles in my uterus come August...LOTS of prayers please!
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Tomorrow is HUGE
Tomorrow we begin our IVF journey...This has been a long time coming for me and I am excited, terrified, nervous and hopeful all at the same time! The thought of even going through this process...getting pregnant...being pregnant...actually having a baby-a REAL baby...of my own...I can't fathom the thought...Surreal...
I've just this evening begun the first of many meds to come over the next two months...Two Zithromax down the hatch (and two for Cody-he gets to get in on this action too!) and two more in the morning. You know it's gonna be good times for sure when the nurse tells you to be sure and take 4 advil in the morning before the "procedure" and to come with a full bladder-that is always the BEST part. My FAVE. Love that "about to pee my pants for realzzzzz" feeling. I'm telling you right now my bladder isn't what it used to be. Ask the kids...They know why I don't jump on the trampline! ;) Seriously...they know. Anywhoosies...Tomorrow is my Sonohysterogram/Mock Transfer. This involves the table with stirrups (another fave), a catheter, and a pelvic ultrasound wand...Don't be jealous peeps...seriously. Hopefully this will go off without a hitch and after five minutes I can ditch the paper towel blanket and get back into real clothes. (Not that I have anything against oversized itchy paper towels and no skivies). And...hopefully the sonogram reveals a perfectly beautiful uterus with no polyps, fibroids or crocodiles.
Did I mention the tumor on my ovary disappeared? I think Dr. Moffitt might think I'm crazy because after spending an hour discussing the pros and cons to removing the tumor before or after IVF and pregnancy he performed an ultrasound on his own and...NO TUMOR! Endometriomas don't disappear on their own...It's not possible...But miracles do happen and I feel so beyond grateful and blessed for this miracle that, to me, is proof more than ever that Heavenly Father loves and cares about ME and answers prayers! Needless to say, we spent an extra hour afterwards discussing IVF minus the tumor.
Ugh...time for bed. My belly does NOT like two Zithromax at once...Here's to a good night's sleep with (hoepfully) no vomiting :)
We will be fasting again next fast Sunday-for a successful IVF cycle, and hopefully a healthy pregnancy and baby to follow.
I've just this evening begun the first of many meds to come over the next two months...Two Zithromax down the hatch (and two for Cody-he gets to get in on this action too!) and two more in the morning. You know it's gonna be good times for sure when the nurse tells you to be sure and take 4 advil in the morning before the "procedure" and to come with a full bladder-that is always the BEST part. My FAVE. Love that "about to pee my pants for realzzzzz" feeling. I'm telling you right now my bladder isn't what it used to be. Ask the kids...They know why I don't jump on the trampline! ;) Seriously...they know. Anywhoosies...Tomorrow is my Sonohysterogram/Mock Transfer. This involves the table with stirrups (another fave), a catheter, and a pelvic ultrasound wand...Don't be jealous peeps...seriously. Hopefully this will go off without a hitch and after five minutes I can ditch the paper towel blanket and get back into real clothes. (Not that I have anything against oversized itchy paper towels and no skivies). And...hopefully the sonogram reveals a perfectly beautiful uterus with no polyps, fibroids or crocodiles.
Did I mention the tumor on my ovary disappeared? I think Dr. Moffitt might think I'm crazy because after spending an hour discussing the pros and cons to removing the tumor before or after IVF and pregnancy he performed an ultrasound on his own and...NO TUMOR! Endometriomas don't disappear on their own...It's not possible...But miracles do happen and I feel so beyond grateful and blessed for this miracle that, to me, is proof more than ever that Heavenly Father loves and cares about ME and answers prayers! Needless to say, we spent an extra hour afterwards discussing IVF minus the tumor.
Ugh...time for bed. My belly does NOT like two Zithromax at once...Here's to a good night's sleep with (hoepfully) no vomiting :)
We will be fasting again next fast Sunday-for a successful IVF cycle, and hopefully a healthy pregnancy and baby to follow.
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