Miss Harper is getting bigger and bigger! She has been a good girl for momma and has really eased up on my morning sickness...with the exception of this weekend in Tucson...Ewww. The kids complained that I kept them up at night because I threw up "too loudly"...so sorry lol.
A little over a month ago we learned some devastating news. I laid in the ultrasound room, surrounded by doctors, residents and assistants...and I knew something wasn't right...in fact, I could tell something was really wrong. Nobody was talking. My doctor scanned, back and forth between baby a and baby b. Only one heart beat. We had lost baby b and I was flooded with feelings of guilt, sadness and emptiness. How did I not know? I felt like I let my baby down...like I should have done more but didn't... My amazing doctors (have I mentioned how awesome my repro docs are?) Were so compassionate. They took this last picture for me of our twins together and walked me out the private exit with a hug and tears in their eyes. Throughout the day my inbox was flooded with messages of support from my nurses,doctors and assistants. I spent the day at home, with Cody. We cried...slept...cried a little more add attempted to make sense of our loss.
We named him Flash. He was ours for a short time but we will love him for an eternity. Unfortunately, the sub chorionic bleed had grown and caused his placenta to detach enough to disrupt his supply of nutrients. Luckily it has since stabilized and us not threatening Harper at all.
We still see his little gummy bear body at every scan...and my heart aches a little every day missing my Flash. We are grateful tho that Harper is healthy and we can't wait to meet our little love.
I'm in love. Miss Harper already has momma and daddy totally in love...like whoa kinda love...can't describe it kinda love. Yes...she's a "Miss". Lil miss Harper was a good girl during our high def ultrasound and the docs are confident a are having a girl!! Squeal!!! She has the cutest little button nose, I could stare at her all day. Austin wasn't sure about having another sister but but now he asks to feel her every chance he gets. Be...still...my...heart...xoxo
This pregnancy is starting to sink in and feel real...I've developed some wicked cravings! Tonight I had a tuna sandwich for dinner...with a large orange juice from Sonic. The combination was amazing:)
